That Moment When…

 

Sometimes, I feel like my blog becomes a big commercial for self-publishing, and I don’t intend that to be the case. But sometimes there are just these moments that get me so excited that I just can’t help but share them. Yesterday was one of these moments.

As I get closer to finishing my revisions (a lot of it is full out re-writes, let’s be honest), I’ve started looking more seriously into the other final steps – formatting, fonts, cover art. And I narrowed down my search to four cover artists I was considering. Then I narrowed it down to two. Then, on a whim, I asked a friend who is craaaazy talented to see what she could come up with, just for fun in her spare time. I thought maybe she could help me to narrow my vision of what I was looking for, and sift through some ideas to weed out what would eventually work and what wouldn’t. And it was working – we were getting closer.

And then yesterday. I got an email from her with no text at all, just the image she’d been working on. And I got instant goosebumps. It was my cover. THIS. IS. IT. It was a moment I’ve been looking forward to for a long time, and it caught me completely by surprise. And it was wonderful.

And this this THIS is why I’m self-publishing. For these moments. It’s not a commercial; it’s not a debate; I’m not out to convince anyone to make the choice I’ve made. But I know that this is absolutely the right choice for me. And it’s moments like this that show me that. To be able to design and choose my own cover art down to the smallest detail is HUGE to me – having control over every aspect of how my book is presented (inside and out)… that’s what it’s all about for me.

I’m not sharing it yet. There will be a blog tour and cover reveal when the time is right (if I can figure out how to organize that! That’ll be the next step). I can’t wait to share it with the world! But for now, just know that it’s worth waiting for.

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And the winner is…

Thanks so much to all who voted for the cover image to appear on my book! The winner is…

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I have to agree, this is a very cool photo, and it actually fits my story really well. I’m still working it all out, going through the motions of querying and being rejected (such an interesting process), but while that’s happening I’m doing all of my homework and getting ready to self-publish. I think the biggest stumbling block for me is that right now, the way the game is laid out, if I take the step to self-publish my book, then I am essentially saying “Yes, I agree to the fact that I will NEVER have an agent represent my work, and I will NEVER be a Legitimate Author in the Traditional Publishing World.” And you know, that’s a big statement. And it might be part of what I have to accept if I move forward. But honestly, I’m coming to terms with even that.  I think that it’s all in my perspective. Instead of looking to Veronica Roth as the example (although I still adore her, and will have tea with her any time she asks), I need to look instead to Sarah J Maas and Kate Avery Ellison … Indie authors who have made it, and are surviving and thriving in that environment. Sarah, who went the self-pub route and is now represented and published mainstream due to her amazing series. And Kate whose series was successful and has since been offered representation but refused it in order to maintain her own autonomy over her vision. Both are so inspiring to me in their own ways (plus I’m a big fan, find Sarah here and Kate here).

So yeah, that’s where we are. The homework continues, the querying goes on (for now), and I keep getting to be a writer. Life is good.